Hey honey this is new for me so bear with me. I am missing you so much. Some days I cannot see your face and others I just want to hear your voice so bad. I hope that it was nothing that I did that ended your time here on earth. I really tried to help and to take good care of you, but now I sit and wonder if there was something that I could have done differently. Did I miss something, Not see something, but then I think I had you to every doctor in the month of September.
Oh well Frani is here this week and it has been rough. Do not know if it is me or just the time. My emotions are all over the place. I sometimes feel that I am not mourning enough and others I just want to sit and cry. I still am waiting for a phone call at some point during the day. I am still waiting to see you in the drive way. I just feel like it is a dream and I will wake up and you will be there, Please help me and the kids to get through this nightmare that we are going through. I love and miss you and wish I had been a more affectionate wife to you. I tried in other ways to show I loved you and I hope you know that.
I love you and your wit and all your effort to make me smile/laugh. You got such a kick out of that. I just cannot pfantom the rest of my life without YOU!!
Love Me