Hey dad. Happy Father's Day. Well, today is the our first father's day without you around. And as we get closer to going to mom's for dinner, the more real the void becomes. I wonder if the pain I feel when I think of you, is that I am not sure we ever really established the type of relationship I wanted to have with my dad. Granted, I now know the mistake I made of not capitalizing on the type of relationship we could have had. We could have sat and watched movies together, football, golf, game shows or just watched anything that came on. Simply, you would watch anything that came on TV. And as each passes by, I know I also missed an opportunity to be with you in some way; I missed an opportunity to develop a better relationship; I missed an opportunity to get to know you better; essentially, I just missed out.
It is at time painful moving forward knowing I cannot get a second chance with you. It does hurt, when I do think about it.
i am actually editing this post, almost 6 weeks later, so i am not sure how I was feeling at that moment when I first start this dad. But i do know, there are many times of late, when I think of you and not in the negative frustrating ways I have. But in the way I could have thought of you--my dad. The man responsible for bringing me into this world, whose has a past and had a life, both I wish I knew more about.
Take care dad. Love you Pal.
It is at time painful moving forward knowing I cannot get a second chance with you. It does hurt, when I do think about it.
i am actually editing this post, almost 6 weeks later, so i am not sure how I was feeling at that moment when I first start this dad. But i do know, there are many times of late, when I think of you and not in the negative frustrating ways I have. But in the way I could have thought of you--my dad. The man responsible for bringing me into this world, whose has a past and had a life, both I wish I knew more about.
Take care dad. Love you Pal.
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