sometimes i forget.
forget that you are gone
forget that what you look like
forget that you were here
this really bothers me. i never want to forget.how can my father not be here anymore? i want to remember everything. how is it that after such a short period of time i feel like i am forgetting you? i am on this planet because of you. i know you wouldn't want us to stop living because you have moved on, but it feels like the more i live the further i get from you. that scares and saddens me. i know i have pictures to look at to bring you back or songs that i can listen to or even certain smells that conjure up memories, but they can't bring you back in the flesh. the human connection is what i feel slipping away and what i want so desperately to cling to. nothing can bring that back.
Just because you are gone doesn't mean that you aren't still with me and this i know. i talk to you everyday! you don't always respond.... hello, manners?!?!? but i know that we are connected.
i miss you dad!
